I think you're thinking of someone else.

[underused]

I've fallen into this trap of wanting everything I write to be less than 200 words. I'm writing to match my attention span, which has been waning for a decade. I love you, internet, but you've rewired me. I'm a goldfish.

I've just emerged from a week of activity. Seeing people, doing things--the family business. My sister was visiting from overseas, so all of us and our partners spent as much time together as possible.

For a person who spends so much time alone, it was borderline surreal. I'm so terribly unsocial that after a day or two of steady interaction I feel like a part of my brain shuts down. I mean, I'm there, eating, talking, making plans--and I'm happy to be there, because these are people I love--but everything seems odd and other, like watching my life through the wrong end of binoculars. At the end of it, there's an unshakeable sense I've imagined it all.

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[mr_picard]

I can relate - social interaction weakens me considerably and I feel weird after only one or two hours of it... so kudos to you for getting through it for days! :)

Also... KITTEH

[underused]

I find it's always a strange push and pull. If I don't socialise enough I start to lose perspective, and being around others and hearing their thoughts and ideas inspires me to think about and try new things. But too much of it and I just start to feel sort of... surrounded. I guess that's why online spaces (like Imzy and DW) play an important role in our lives. You can interact on your own terms.

But there's a dilemma there, too. It turns into a bubble of its own. There's something to be said for situations that force you to adapt--it's def a way to learn more about yourself.